Wow! I have left my blog for what seems like forever I don't even remember the last time I posted anything! Well I am going into my third week of my second year at Highlands College and I have learned so many practical things thus far, I am really looking forward to all that God will show me this semester! Today I am going to try and keep it short and sweet, actually I think I will be writing short blogs but more often so everyone reading will actually follow what is going on, not just big event.
Speaking of big events I sang my first Sunday morning at our main campus, Grants Mill. It was such an amazing experience! Of course something weird always happens your first try at anything and something so weird actually happened! Well there are eight back up singers every service and after every service we put our mics on the stands backstage and before you walk back out you grab the your mic. When we turn on our mics a little screen pops up and says "alto 1, alto 2 or sop 1,sop 2" and so on. Right before our 9:30 service I grab the mic of the stand and head out into a full auditorium that seats 2,600 people. When I turn on my mic and look down instead of the mic reading "alto 2" it says "worship leader" so I look to the guy to my left and switched mics, the mic I had was his. So I grab the mic he had and as we start our first song I look to see the mic reads "alto 1" who is the main female vocalist. Later on in the service she is supposed to be leading a song and I am freaking out in my mind and trying to get her attentions when she is on the other side of this big stage. Half way through our first song she takes a few steps back and looks at me and mouths out "you have my mic?" I responded "yup" and continued to freak out. At the end of the song I see look at me and we met in the middle of the stage between songs to swap mics. Luckily it wasn't that noticeable but during that time in my mind I was crying. Everyone has there stories of doing something stupid on stage and that was mine and it was done on my first time!
Ok so this isn't going to be as short as I thought I've got to catch you on life! ha! Well I have a new little baby in my house! Her name is Ella Kate Wilbanks born at 9:58 on January 11, 2012. She is the most precious little girl! She is very calm and "easy to please" as Andi says. Which is pretty opposite of the first two! So we have a party in our house 3 kids under the age of 3 so there is never a dull moment!
Also our church is going through our 21 days of prayer and fasting. I love the prayer part but I am not a fan of fasting. I am doing mainly a media fast to disconnect myself from the world. So things like Facebook, twitter, secular music and t.v have been out of the picture for 2 weeks and I have definitely seen a change! My best friend Sandlyn and I had coffee the first week of the year right before she moved to Australia and me and here both had heard from God about what this year would look for me. I told her that I honestly felt like this was the year that the junk of the world that still attracted me would fall off. I knew that this was the year that I begin what God has called me to and really seek him. Sandlyn confirmed this and spoke so many great things over my life this year and it encouraged me all the more! Well as this fast has been going I have been quoting Matthew 6:33 "seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness" and my focus is so solid on Him and His heart and know that my foundation is firm. I am not even a full month into the year and my view on worldly things have changed dramatically!!! I have deleted have of the music on my Ipod and really seeking him in all my decisions.
I know that 2012 is going to be the best year yet! I serve a Big, great God and I have amazing people by my side! I am so pumped!! love you all! hope to get back with you soon!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Being in Gods Will
Hey Friends! So something that God is bringing up so much in my life is His will and being aligned with it. In the last post I told you guys that I feel so at peace and so content with my life because I know that I was designed to do what I am doing. Never in my life have I felt this content because I was never doing what I was purposed to do. Its not just with worship but with everything! I was supposed to learn the things I am learning right now because any other time I probably would have no idea what I was learning. Things that he is revealing and bringing out of me has perfect timing.
Several weeks ago I heard a message from Pastor Layne about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. I have been speaking in tongues since like 3rd or 4th grade but I have never heard a message on it and the power it has. I have seen people speak in tongues and someone else translating ha! Pastor Layne said that when we speak in tongues we are praying the will of God. That we are speaking in our heavenly language and God understands every sound. So when we are to weak in our flesh to pray; whether we're mad or hurt or any feeling that isn't of God we can pray his will. When he spoke this it was the beginning of the semester and since then I have put in practice. I try to speak in my heavenly language every day so I am aligned with his will. I believe because of this I am so content because his will is being done. I have gone through some rough things this semester and all I could do is speak his will and those situations that have been rough have turned around for his glory. I just cannot get over just how crazy that is!
Two weeks ago I met with one of my close friends at Starbucks and we just talked about Jesus. Which I am not use to sitting down one on one with a friend and we preach/teach each other about God. That is what I like to call a covenant friend :) Her name is Sandlyn and the girl is crazy anointed! She described to me a thought of how it is to be in Gods will and since she has told me everyday I think of it and God has added more detail to it. This is what I have in my mind of Gods will.
It is like my life is a story book that God the Father wrote before the earth was created, he wrote everyone's story. This story is what his plan is for us, every second. I picture it as if when I get to heaven God takes my hand and we go and sit somewhere so he can show me MY book. As he flips through pages full of his beautiful handwriting he passes a page that has an "X" on top of what he wrote but he continues and flips by it as if it wasn't a big deal. I ask him, "What was that? Why is that X there" and he tells me, "This was what I wanted for you, this was the original plan." He flips the page and says, "... But this is what you chose, I knew you were going to choose it and the choice you made was simply a detour to get back to my original plan."
There are a lot of pages, I am sure that God has had to cross out for me but, I am back to his original plan. He changed some things around and he brought the page up again in a following chapter. He is so loving that he gives us a choice and he is so gracious and merciful that will gives us option after option until we choose the one He wanted. He is going to give it to us till the day we die. What you are designed to do will never leave you, it will be continually brought up in following chapters.
Now that I know I am where I was designed to be, now that I am back onto pages he intended all I need to do is rest. As long as I keep focusing on him the next page is His. I don't have to worry "will I be in his will tomorrow" because I am close to him so he will lead and I don't go into any opportunity without him with me and have his permission.
God's will brings rest, it brings contentment, it brings clarity. I am sure in the future I will chose something that He didn't want but he will keep writing and bring that opportunity again. I just don't want to miss the first one because it may be greater!
I love you all and I pray that you become close to his heart so your tomorrow's are his and not your own, believe me his are always better. :)
Several weeks ago I heard a message from Pastor Layne about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. I have been speaking in tongues since like 3rd or 4th grade but I have never heard a message on it and the power it has. I have seen people speak in tongues and someone else translating ha! Pastor Layne said that when we speak in tongues we are praying the will of God. That we are speaking in our heavenly language and God understands every sound. So when we are to weak in our flesh to pray; whether we're mad or hurt or any feeling that isn't of God we can pray his will. When he spoke this it was the beginning of the semester and since then I have put in practice. I try to speak in my heavenly language every day so I am aligned with his will. I believe because of this I am so content because his will is being done. I have gone through some rough things this semester and all I could do is speak his will and those situations that have been rough have turned around for his glory. I just cannot get over just how crazy that is!
Two weeks ago I met with one of my close friends at Starbucks and we just talked about Jesus. Which I am not use to sitting down one on one with a friend and we preach/teach each other about God. That is what I like to call a covenant friend :) Her name is Sandlyn and the girl is crazy anointed! She described to me a thought of how it is to be in Gods will and since she has told me everyday I think of it and God has added more detail to it. This is what I have in my mind of Gods will.
It is like my life is a story book that God the Father wrote before the earth was created, he wrote everyone's story. This story is what his plan is for us, every second. I picture it as if when I get to heaven God takes my hand and we go and sit somewhere so he can show me MY book. As he flips through pages full of his beautiful handwriting he passes a page that has an "X" on top of what he wrote but he continues and flips by it as if it wasn't a big deal. I ask him, "What was that? Why is that X there" and he tells me, "This was what I wanted for you, this was the original plan." He flips the page and says, "... But this is what you chose, I knew you were going to choose it and the choice you made was simply a detour to get back to my original plan."
There are a lot of pages, I am sure that God has had to cross out for me but, I am back to his original plan. He changed some things around and he brought the page up again in a following chapter. He is so loving that he gives us a choice and he is so gracious and merciful that will gives us option after option until we choose the one He wanted. He is going to give it to us till the day we die. What you are designed to do will never leave you, it will be continually brought up in following chapters.
Now that I know I am where I was designed to be, now that I am back onto pages he intended all I need to do is rest. As long as I keep focusing on him the next page is His. I don't have to worry "will I be in his will tomorrow" because I am close to him so he will lead and I don't go into any opportunity without him with me and have his permission.
God's will brings rest, it brings contentment, it brings clarity. I am sure in the future I will chose something that He didn't want but he will keep writing and bring that opportunity again. I just don't want to miss the first one because it may be greater!
I love you all and I pray that you become close to his heart so your tomorrow's are his and not your own, believe me his are always better. :)
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Dream Big.
Hey Friends! Wow it has been a month since my last post and I am so sorry! This month has been a busy one, very eventful! Well I want to get back in the habit of letting you guys know what is going on in my life. So through out my posts I don't think I have filled you guys in on my dreams and the calling that I feel God has placed on my life, the reason why I am in ministry school.
Well, it all started on a cold November day when I came into the world.. ha just kidding. But seriously, when I was thirteen I was told by my youth pastors wife that I would be a worship leader that led thousands and when I lead I would cast out demons and break chains off people. I thought this was pretty ridiculous because growing up in a family that was in the ministry I didn't want to go into the ministry. Yeah, I liked to sing but only like in the shower and around friends, not in front of "thousands." Well, needless to say a few years later I was one of the worship leaders in a different youth group and that is when the ball got rollin'. That is when I met one of my fave couples ever that I probably talk about in every post but my current youth pastors and friends Derrick and Valarie Blasczyk. I love how God brings people into our lives to help coach us into our potential and they have definitely done that! They saw something in me that I didn't see. By my senior year of High School I knew that I was supposed to be in the ministry not a nurse, which I was dead set on. Derrick and Valarie also knew this and did everything they could to get me where I am and I am so thankful for them.
So I am here in ministry school training to be a worship leader and since the day I walked into Church of the Highland I am constantly having dreams and visions that I know are from God. I know now I am suppose to lead in front of "thousands." I know the power I have inside me (God) and that with him I CAN do all the things I was told I would do.
Well to get to the point this is my dream/ vision. I have this dream/vision since last semester and God keeps adding more to it. My dream is to plant a Church in Australia with my husband. Where he would be the Senior Pastor and I would be the Worship Pastor. How freakin' awesome would that be?! There are so many small details about that and its so awesome!
Most of the prophesy that was spoken over me has happened and the biggest part will happen in the following weeks "thousands." I am an official front line worshiper at our church, which means I am one of eight singers who sing on Sunday mornings at Highlands. Last semester I made it my goal to be on this stage on Sunday mornings before Thanksgiving and I made it! This last week I sang at one of the other campus', this Sunday I will sing in the main sanctuary for the night service and the following week, my birthday, I will sing Sunday morning at our main campus in front literally "thousands." We have three services and seat 2,600 in the room, not to mention we are streaming online where people all across the world will watch.... Is this real life?!?! So I am fulfilling what God has called me to do! It is the coolest place to be.
Yesterday, we had chapel and the worship track leads worship, which these students are super talented its crazy! I sang one song, I will exalt you by Brooke Fraser, it is one of my faves! Well funny story: I am not a public speaker WHAT SO EVERRR I hate speaking in front of a group of people I can sing and that is about it. The main worship leader for chapel asked me a few weeks ago to pray in between songs and I said, "HECK NO!" ha I just don't like speaking. Well yesterday before service the team met and I felt like during my song God wanted to do some ministry time so I asked if I can flow more with it, thinking I would sing another chorus. Well when it came to my song I totally felt Jesus all over me! While the band did the intro I prayed... what?! me pray in front of people, this isn't normal! Well I begin to sing and God was kept telling me I needed to speak for a second and he would give me the words and I didn't for a second freak out! I just let it happen and when it did I never felt so confident in what I was saying because they weren't even my words. ha! After I spoke I finished the song and that was that. After worship I saw a tweet from my Pastor saying "@TrishaRowe is one of the most anointed worshipers I have seen! Watch and see what God does through her" I was freakin shocked and started crying haha, cause I'm a baby. Afterwards I have never had so many people tell me how "anointed" I was, its so cool cause I didn't do anything it was Jesus!!! When I first started leading I always wanted to be told I was "anointed" for selfish reasons. My Mom would say that my sister was an "anointed" worshiper and I sang pretty, and of course I was jealous. Granted my sister is crazy anointed and I am so proud of her. But when I when I pushed that aside and realized her calling and my calling are different and just worshiped God was able to use me.
I am so blessed that my dreams are coming true. I have never been so content in my life because I am right in the middle of what God has called me to do. I have never trusted him so much with my life! I honestly don't have a care in the world right now, like I know he's got it. I am finally stress free! I know I am coming back to do a second year, I don't have the money for it but God does! hahahaha! aaah He is so good! I am so happy with where I am at because this is what I was designed for!
I love you all so much! Hope you have an incredible day!
Ps. sorry that was all over the place and I rambled a lot but you know how I do. ha
Well, it all started on a cold November day when I came into the world.. ha just kidding. But seriously, when I was thirteen I was told by my youth pastors wife that I would be a worship leader that led thousands and when I lead I would cast out demons and break chains off people. I thought this was pretty ridiculous because growing up in a family that was in the ministry I didn't want to go into the ministry. Yeah, I liked to sing but only like in the shower and around friends, not in front of "thousands." Well, needless to say a few years later I was one of the worship leaders in a different youth group and that is when the ball got rollin'. That is when I met one of my fave couples ever that I probably talk about in every post but my current youth pastors and friends Derrick and Valarie Blasczyk. I love how God brings people into our lives to help coach us into our potential and they have definitely done that! They saw something in me that I didn't see. By my senior year of High School I knew that I was supposed to be in the ministry not a nurse, which I was dead set on. Derrick and Valarie also knew this and did everything they could to get me where I am and I am so thankful for them.
So I am here in ministry school training to be a worship leader and since the day I walked into Church of the Highland I am constantly having dreams and visions that I know are from God. I know now I am suppose to lead in front of "thousands." I know the power I have inside me (God) and that with him I CAN do all the things I was told I would do.
Well to get to the point this is my dream/ vision. I have this dream/vision since last semester and God keeps adding more to it. My dream is to plant a Church in Australia with my husband. Where he would be the Senior Pastor and I would be the Worship Pastor. How freakin' awesome would that be?! There are so many small details about that and its so awesome!
Most of the prophesy that was spoken over me has happened and the biggest part will happen in the following weeks "thousands." I am an official front line worshiper at our church, which means I am one of eight singers who sing on Sunday mornings at Highlands. Last semester I made it my goal to be on this stage on Sunday mornings before Thanksgiving and I made it! This last week I sang at one of the other campus', this Sunday I will sing in the main sanctuary for the night service and the following week, my birthday, I will sing Sunday morning at our main campus in front literally "thousands." We have three services and seat 2,600 in the room, not to mention we are streaming online where people all across the world will watch.... Is this real life?!?! So I am fulfilling what God has called me to do! It is the coolest place to be.
Yesterday, we had chapel and the worship track leads worship, which these students are super talented its crazy! I sang one song, I will exalt you by Brooke Fraser, it is one of my faves! Well funny story: I am not a public speaker WHAT SO EVERRR I hate speaking in front of a group of people I can sing and that is about it. The main worship leader for chapel asked me a few weeks ago to pray in between songs and I said, "HECK NO!" ha I just don't like speaking. Well yesterday before service the team met and I felt like during my song God wanted to do some ministry time so I asked if I can flow more with it, thinking I would sing another chorus. Well when it came to my song I totally felt Jesus all over me! While the band did the intro I prayed... what?! me pray in front of people, this isn't normal! Well I begin to sing and God was kept telling me I needed to speak for a second and he would give me the words and I didn't for a second freak out! I just let it happen and when it did I never felt so confident in what I was saying because they weren't even my words. ha! After I spoke I finished the song and that was that. After worship I saw a tweet from my Pastor saying "@TrishaRowe is one of the most anointed worshipers I have seen! Watch and see what God does through her" I was freakin shocked and started crying haha, cause I'm a baby. Afterwards I have never had so many people tell me how "anointed" I was, its so cool cause I didn't do anything it was Jesus!!! When I first started leading I always wanted to be told I was "anointed" for selfish reasons. My Mom would say that my sister was an "anointed" worshiper and I sang pretty, and of course I was jealous. Granted my sister is crazy anointed and I am so proud of her. But when I when I pushed that aside and realized her calling and my calling are different and just worshiped God was able to use me.
I am so blessed that my dreams are coming true. I have never been so content in my life because I am right in the middle of what God has called me to do. I have never trusted him so much with my life! I honestly don't have a care in the world right now, like I know he's got it. I am finally stress free! I know I am coming back to do a second year, I don't have the money for it but God does! hahahaha! aaah He is so good! I am so happy with where I am at because this is what I was designed for!
I love you all so much! Hope you have an incredible day!
Ps. sorry that was all over the place and I rambled a lot but you know how I do. ha
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Blessed Beyond Belief!
Usually on Tuesday mornings I will write my blog but today was an off day. The first Tuesday of every month Highlands has an all staff meeting; every campus pastor or nursery overseer, everybody! This morning I had the most amazing privilege and honor to sing with Pastor John Larson in front of the entire Highlands staff, including my wonderful pastor, Pastor Chris Hodges. I am so in awe of all of the opportunities God has given me. Anyone who has supported me; whether financially or prayers you play SUCH a huge role in this! God has placed so many amazing people in my life who see my potential and see what God is calling me to and invest so much time into me. There is no other way to describe this feeling other than blessed!
This time last year I was in a month of prayer to see where God was wanting me to go. I knew I was going into the ministry but I didn't know how I would get there. Honestly if it wasn't for 2 of the most influential people in my life, Derrick and Valarie Blasczyk, I could honestly say I wouldn't be here. They pushed me, encouraged me and stood by my side through this process. I wont forget September 26, 2010 I sat on the floor of their living room and they prayed for me and told me to pray for the next month. Within the first week I knew I was called to 24/7 which is now Highlands College. I continued to pray and didn't move until that month was over and then with a lot of faith and trust in God a few months later I was here.
I am so amazed at how far I have come in one year. God has transformed my life that I didn't think could happen for me. I am now looked as a leader and my whole life I have been a follower. I was intimidated by people but now I strive to make people better at their ability. I dreamed about being a worship leader and now I am one. I wasn't much of a bible reader but now I crave it! I once looked to worldly things to find my worth but now my heavenly father tells me what I am worth. I was so insecure but I am now secure in what God has made me and who He is through me.
I was reading the bible the other day and it said that he has created our inmost being and the hebrew translation for that means our personality, desires, dreams ect. He created all of that for a purpose! He placed those things in our hearts, minds, and souls so we can use them for HIS glory. I am so blessed with the things that he has created in me and it is the coolest thing to see him mold me into what I was designed to do! I know that the same power that conquered the grave lives in me and I cannot wait till the day that when I lead worship and the prophecy that was given to me happens and I see chains broken off people, demons casted out and see healing take place.
I am so overwhelmed with God's love right now. I am sitting on my bed an tearing up and I feel God so thick in my bedroom that my legs and my hands are trembling. As I am writing I honestly think He is reminding me of where he has brought me and reminding me of his promises for me. The drive home tonight I cried out to God because I am stressing about finances. I have yet to pay off this year and I want to start getting ready for next year and it seems impossible. The Lord promised me in my month of praying last year that I would never be in need of money that he would provide for me for the rest of my life. But it is honestly really hard to believe it when it isn't in front of you. I am praying that I can trust him more everyday. The journey of coming to Birmingham was hard. There was a lot of tears and stress about money but I made it. And I am trying my best to believe it now. Becoming an adult is hard. Being in the ministry is probably even harder. My whole life I will have to live in faith and I need to learn now. ha!
I honestly just want to thank anyone who has ever supported me in any way! I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for you! It honestly scares me to think of where I would be if I wasn't here. You are a big part in what God is doing in my life and from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU. I ask that you would continue to pray for me as I pray for you! I love you all and hope God blesses your socks off!
PS: I am probably going to post another blog by the end of the week because tomorrow is a big day! I am getting baptized and I have some other news I would like to share with you! I definitely was not planning on writing all that I said but it was just on my heart. :)
Once again I love you all!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
"Are you who the person you are looking for is looking for?"
This quote comes from an amazing Andy Stanley series that I
watched this past week and it changed my life! The series is called “New Rules
for Love, Sex and Dating. The title sounds really intense but it is so good and
challenging to become “the one” instead of looking for “the one”. In this
series he targets worldly aspects of the dating scene and comparing it with
what God says about it. This series motivated me so much to start preparing for
marriage. One thing that stuck out the most is we cannot make a promise (saying
“I Do”) with out preparation. We think that when we say I do we will
automatically know how to love patiently, kindly ect… But we must learn how to
love now!
The last
part of this series he challenges single people to take a year off for a lot of
reasons. Number one, we can change the direction of our story. Every person has
a story that they will tell the person that they will marry; whether or not if
we like it or not is up to us. We can change it! Regardless of our past
mistakes we can tell our future spouse “on this day I changed it and dedicated
a year to prepare for you”. Another reason to take a year off is to simple grow
closer to God, learn how to submit to him and really go after him and take care
of our baggage. With all of this said, I have committed this next year to
Jesus. I am taking a year off dating or “talking” until September 25, 2012. I
am so excited about this! Yeah it will be tough but I know that God is going to
honor it! This is exactly what I need to grow closer to Jesus and mature as a
person; breaking bad habits and gaining good ones. I am at a place in my life
where I am starting to grow up and becoming more independent and this year is
going to really kick it in gear. My main prayer for this year is that God will
mold me into the woman my future husband will need and learn how to love him
the way he will need to be loved.
In other
new, I have writing my first legit song! On Tuesdays we spend the whole day in
our tracks. For worship, we are at the church bright and early to have personal
development time. I usually take this time to blog like I am doing right now J
and practice songs that I am scheduled to sing within the next week. We have an
hour lunch break and then straight into classes which are my favorite part of
the week. We have an hour class with the Associate worship pastor, Pastor
Justin Bradshaw and John-Mark Durough. Pastor Justin just debriefs the past
week and we talk about upcoming events and John-Mark teaches Music theory.
Right after that we have a creative worship class with CJ Blount, this class is
great! We learn how to make a Sunday set list and also how to write songs. Our
first week he paired us up in twos and each group has to write a song and
present it to the class. My partner is an awesome musician so I figured he
would do all the writing but God had a different plan. I wrote the lyrics and
he wrote the music and we put it together and it is so beautiful! I am so
excited because I never written a song and never thought I would be able to! Today
we are presenting it and I am surprisingly pretty calm! Oh yeah and of course
and can’t forget our last class with Pastor John Larson! He shares his wisdom
of being a worship LEADER. There are so many things and so many people a
worship leader will lead and we are learning what those things are and how we
lead effectively. I am so blessed that Jesus put this calling on my life and
cannot picture myself doing anything else than leading people into the presence
of Jesus Christ.
I guess
that’s about it for right now J I am going to go practice some songs! Love you all
and hope you have a great rest of the week! Ps: here is a Link to the series, its free!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Highlands College
Well I started writing a blog about how things have been going this first month but given that I am super A.D.D it changed and I just want to talk about what Jesus is doing. I just want to start off and say that I am so in awe of God, that he would bring me to this amazing place and give me these amazing opportunities! I never in a million years thought I would get to experience anything like this! I can't explain just how honored I am the HE would use me!
Since last semester our school has grown quite a bit! Highlands College is now an accredited school doing amazing things and headed in an awesome direction! I am now my track coordinator, which is pretty awesome. Pretty much that means I am learning an administrative aspect of worship to learn all area's of worship. I get to serve along side of some incredibly anointed people like Pastor John Larson, Pastor Justin Bradshaw, CJ Blount, John-Mark Durough and Ashley Durough (Highlands worship staff)! Worship track has grown from 5 people last semester to 18 people this semester, how crazy is that? I have been given some great opportunities in worship; singing in Highlands College chapels and even for Switch, the youth group here. I have been growing in different skills; vocally and lyrically. Yes, I am writing now! Never thought I would say it, I have always wanted to but never could. I wrote my first song today along with another worship tracker and we will preform it next week. I cannot wait to see where He leads me this semester.
Another thing Jesus is doing is working "leadership skills" and my heart for people. My heart towards people has changed, not to say I hated people but I have a new passion to serve. Last semester I took the D.I.S.C test and I was a C/S, more of a quiet, rather be a follower than a leader type of person and honestly just really focused on myself. This past week I have taken that same test and I am now an I/S which is more outgoing and willing to help others. To me this is an answered prayer! Coming into this semester I was so scared of all the new kids coming in and I had to do some serious prayer about my heart. I prayed that God would give me a heart that would want to make them greater. It took a lot of praying but praise the Lord, he did change my heart. I love all of the new students and I want to serve them, encourage them and make them great more so than myself. In the bible it says that Jesus came TO serve not TO BE served and that is what I want my heart to be from now on.
On top of all of that God has taught me how to be humble. Being a singer/musician/artist whatever, you want to be the best, you want to shine and be known. This is SUCH the wrong mentality, I am not a singer, nor a songwriter, musician or anything is, JESUS is! If I am truly a living sacrifice then that means every step I take is His step, every breath I breathe is His and every lyric of every song I sing is Him! I AM NOT MY OWN. This is Jesus' life I want him to live and move through me. I want people to see or hear Jesus when I open my mouth to sing.
God has just been revealing more leadership skills in me, I have never seen myself as a leader but he is molding to be one. He, just yesterday, really gave me a revelation of his grace and my mind is blown right now! I just love how I am beginning to see everything fall into place. This is the place is where I am supposed to be, this is my home because this is where he has called me right now. I cannot see my self anywhere else but here. I am so excited to see what Jesus does tomorrow and the day after, I have a new excitement for life. I am sorry if some of this was scattered but I want to get down everything I am feeling. Its joy, freedom and passion for my Savior!
Since last semester our school has grown quite a bit! Highlands College is now an accredited school doing amazing things and headed in an awesome direction! I am now my track coordinator, which is pretty awesome. Pretty much that means I am learning an administrative aspect of worship to learn all area's of worship. I get to serve along side of some incredibly anointed people like Pastor John Larson, Pastor Justin Bradshaw, CJ Blount, John-Mark Durough and Ashley Durough (Highlands worship staff)! Worship track has grown from 5 people last semester to 18 people this semester, how crazy is that? I have been given some great opportunities in worship; singing in Highlands College chapels and even for Switch, the youth group here. I have been growing in different skills; vocally and lyrically. Yes, I am writing now! Never thought I would say it, I have always wanted to but never could. I wrote my first song today along with another worship tracker and we will preform it next week. I cannot wait to see where He leads me this semester.
Another thing Jesus is doing is working "leadership skills" and my heart for people. My heart towards people has changed, not to say I hated people but I have a new passion to serve. Last semester I took the D.I.S.C test and I was a C/S, more of a quiet, rather be a follower than a leader type of person and honestly just really focused on myself. This past week I have taken that same test and I am now an I/S which is more outgoing and willing to help others. To me this is an answered prayer! Coming into this semester I was so scared of all the new kids coming in and I had to do some serious prayer about my heart. I prayed that God would give me a heart that would want to make them greater. It took a lot of praying but praise the Lord, he did change my heart. I love all of the new students and I want to serve them, encourage them and make them great more so than myself. In the bible it says that Jesus came TO serve not TO BE served and that is what I want my heart to be from now on.
On top of all of that God has taught me how to be humble. Being a singer/musician/artist whatever, you want to be the best, you want to shine and be known. This is SUCH the wrong mentality, I am not a singer, nor a songwriter, musician or anything is, JESUS is! If I am truly a living sacrifice then that means every step I take is His step, every breath I breathe is His and every lyric of every song I sing is Him! I AM NOT MY OWN. This is Jesus' life I want him to live and move through me. I want people to see or hear Jesus when I open my mouth to sing.
God has just been revealing more leadership skills in me, I have never seen myself as a leader but he is molding to be one. He, just yesterday, really gave me a revelation of his grace and my mind is blown right now! I just love how I am beginning to see everything fall into place. This is the place is where I am supposed to be, this is my home because this is where he has called me right now. I cannot see my self anywhere else but here. I am so excited to see what Jesus does tomorrow and the day after, I have a new excitement for life. I am sorry if some of this was scattered but I want to get down everything I am feeling. Its joy, freedom and passion for my Savior!
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